So...yeah... hello there. I haven't made an entry for like two years. I'm sitting here going through old shit and decided 'well, why not?' But now the only problem is that I don't know what to say.
Why are you even reading this. WHY ARE PEOPLE STILL WATCHING ME. Or, the biggest question is, why are people still favouriting shit I posted years ago?? I mean, c'mon guys. That shit makes me cringe even looking at it. I just don't have the heart to delete any of it because this is the only place I have such memories of all the abominations I created during the early, angsty teen years of my life. So whatever.
What else to ramble about?
Well, my obsessions have shifted a lot throughout all the years I've had this damn account. Star Trek is my current thing. Well, it's been a growing thing for over half a year now... But lately it's become a full-scale obsession. I completed all of TOS and related films up until TNG awhile ago, and have just been rewatching them. I've recently started TNG and it's okay but it makes me sad because MY Enterprise crew is done. And the new Abrams films just make me feel like a crabby, bitter old person when I watch them because "these damn kids playing these same roles - THEY HAVE NO RIGHT" etcetera... (Except for Benedict Cumberbatch. He can be Khan all he wants to be... even if Abrams left vital plot elements out of the alternate universe. But that's a whole separate rant.) But hey, I'm filling up space.
(I like to look back on all these old entries from time to time. It's fun to see the new levels of pathetic my life has advanced to over the years.)
But of course it's not just Star Trek. My life is filled with fandoms. That fact has always remained, even if the fandoms change. Doctor Who, Sherlock, Merlin, Supernatural, Torchwood, Tolkien, The Avengers, and so on. Who needs a social life when I have all this? I even (finally) got a laptop a few weeks ago. So now I don't even have to leave my bed. All I do is sit here and play on the computer. Not that THAT particular aspect of my life has ever been different. It's just nice to not even have to get up at all. Except for food and the bathroom, of course. (Oh, and work.)
One constant I've always had on this website is my silent favouriting. One can see that from my folder. IT'S ALL OTP PORN. Jesus fucking christ... I just realised that. I use dA for the art and AO3 for the fanfics. As a child, I had such dreams for my teenage years... Little did I know they would be completely spent in front of a computer obsessing over fictional characters, crying over OTPs, and reading gay porn of them. AND NOW I'M 19 AND I HAVE LESS THAN A YEAR TIL MY TEENAGE YEARS ARE OVER AND I HAVE LITERALLY SPENT ALL THIS TIME DOING THIS. Fucking hell. That's almost half my life, too. THESE ARE THE GOOD OLD DAYS I'LL REMEMBER WHEN I'M OLD AND IN A ROCKER AND DOING THE EXACT SAME THING. I don't know whether to laugh or cry.
But yeah... Destiel, Merthur, Johnlock, Spirk... My favourites folder is full of it. And older ships. Like Janto. And the Doctor and Rose. AND MCLENNON. Oh goodness. My life.
And tumblr. Tumblr has been near the centre of this insanity for... I've lost track of how many years now. 3? 4? I don't know. It doesn't sound like much, but during this stage of life, it is. Not that it matters. Since this will probably remain my life for the rest of it. I mean, what else would I do?
Wow. A deviantART journal entry of mine gets deep. Try comparing this to an earlier one.
Actually, it's not that deep.
But still. The comparison is funny.
Fuck, I would've hated myself if I encountered my 14-year-old self on the internet. KUDOS TO YOU FOLKS WHO HAVE BEEN WATCHING ME ON HERE ALL THIS TIME. Even though I'm pretty much completely inactive now.
I don't know.
Well... I guess that concludes this journal entry.
UNTIL NEXT TIME... however many more years that will be.